Phase 1 - A Social Life

So I made a new start in the blog and decided it was time to look around and make some new starts in my life too.

I decided to look at the causes of my 'small life' and start doing something about them.

SOCIAL LIFE

My social life is almost entirely lived online. My main interactions with people in the physical world are at work.

I've already started doing something about this one.

A few friends I work with, and a few of their friends all get together once a week to have a meal and see a film. I had an offer to join them a while back but I chickened out and avoided the opportunity.

Yesterday I bit the bullet and said yes. A group of seven of us met at a local pub for a meal before going to the cinema where we watched "You don't mess with the Zohan".

The film was dreadful, terrible, poor, sucked rocks through a straw, in short it was bad, very very bad, very very very bad, very very very very very..... (you get the idea).

BUT

I had a great time! I met new people and I started forming new friendships, I chatted, I listened, we joked, laughed, bitched about work, gossiped about all sorts of things.

We did all the things that all of you out there with active social lives do all the time, but for me it was new, scary and enjoyable.

I'm doing it again next week. The film will be "Babylon A.D." (at least I'll have some hot totty to watch!). But as one of the girls commented last night, what film we go and see is not really that important, the fact that we go out and do something is.

It's a baby step but, hopefully, the first of many.

Identity Crisis

Those of you who have followed my mutterings in the past will have noticed that, in the last few months, my blog theme has changed over and over again.

You'll also notice my output has dropped from little, to none.

These things are closely related to the state of my life at the moment.

I've suddenly realised that, at 39, I still don't know very much about who I am or what I should be doing with my life. I guess it's past time for me to make my mind up.

And of course, those who know me will also know that this post is a pretty good sign that my "Black Dog" is currently in control which makes everything (including getting my arse out of bed every day) difficult.

I heard a podcast from someone called Wanda Wisdom where she described how, during a bad relationship, she wound up living 'a small life' doing little more than a stale routine each and every day. That's how I feel right now.

So I've destroyed the old postings, picked yet another new template, and made this post.

It could be a fresh start or this could be me shrinking my 'small life' a little more, I don't know just yet.

Thanks to everyone who read my blog in the past and special thanks to all of you people out here in cyberspace who made me feel welcome and became (I hope) good friends.